Sometimes, it's really hard to keep sharing the love of Christ with others. It's especially hard to share when your audience is hostile toward the idea of God in the first place. I find myself often using aggressive apologetics because I'm so desperate for the person to see God--really see him, without the blinders. But, that's exactly what's going on, isn't it?? Oh, my word, I have been a Jesus-Loving-Girl-Who-Can't-Get-Enough-of-the-Word off and on most of my life, but this newest season is overwhelming! "Feed me your word, Lord!" And in my most recent studying, I have realized more and more the influence of satan (yes, I truly believe this being exists) on the unbelieving world. I see more clearly his hostility toward not only those who do/will believe, but his hostility toward all creation in general! He seeks to destroy all the beauty of all creation, and he surely isn't content to stop with those who are called in Christ. (h)e is a destroyer of all life, from the drug addict to the porn addict, from the bulimic to the gal who can't quit spending money and wracking up debt. (h)e doesn't show partiality or favoritism. (h)e is in all-out attack mode. Period. End of sentence. Got it??
Because of all these things, I'm learning to pray differently, and I am not at all surprised by the physical attacks I have been undergoing. We can certainly pray, "Father, please let them come to a saving knowledge of you," but we may want to back up a step further and pray, "Father, remove the blindness Satan has inflicted upon this soul," according to 2 Corinthians 4:3-4 which says: "And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel that displays the glory of Christ, who is the image of God." Do you see that?? We feel such responsibility and gut-wrenching anguish when a person rejects the beauty of Truth, but we forget that they cannot see it. We have to first pray that the veil and blindness is lifted.
What in the world does this have to do with Fire in My Bones, you may ask?? A whole lot! Sometimes I get weary. Do you? I get so tired of people misquoting God's Word, pulling passages out of context for their own selfish desires, outright propagating lies, and ignoring facts. I even feel like screaming at times. I get very agitated when those who call themselves believers in Christ deny everything that he said, glorify sin that completely destroys a person, and even encourage others to do so. We know, from Scripture, that this will happen and has been happening all along. But it doesn't make it any easier. Here are just a few passages referring to those who will turn away from Truth:
"For the time will come when people will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear. They will turn their ears away from the truth and turn aside to myths." 2 Timothy 4:3-4
"They went out from us, but they did not really belong to us. For if they had belonged to us, they would have remained with us; but their going showed that none of them belonged to us." 1 John 2:19
"These are people who divide you, who follow mere natural instincts and do not have the Spirit." Jude 19
"They exchanged the truth about God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator--who is forever praised. Amen." Romans 1:25
"Although they know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them." Romans 1:32
If we are truly pro-life, then we are FOR ETERNAL LIFE!! We can't keep the Gospel to ourselves when people are being destroyed all around us. Christ came to set us free from the law of sin and death, he took our blame to the cross so we wouldn't have to. Why in God's name would we intentionally glorify sin, the destruction of humanity, and deny life?? It is because some worship the created things (and beings) rather than God. If you worship people (we are all one, we are all in this together, we belong to one another, yada yada yada--and things I have heard in 'christian' circles lately), then self is elevated above God. Love the person because of a beautiful, holy God who made each individual in his image. Love them enough to help them see Truth (and, yes!! We CAN know absolute Truth!), and love them enough to see them set free!
So, I have this problem. I have a fire in my bones! I want to just keep quiet and keep it to myself because I am tired of people rejecting the beauty and perfection of the Truth of Jesus Christ. I want to see people truly set free. I do not like conflict, and I do not like arguing. But I have to tell others about Jesus. I am pro-life! I am for the full life every person can know in Christ, therefore:
But if I say, "I will not mention his word
or speak anymore in his name,:
his word is in my heart like a fire,
a fire shut up in my bones.
I am weary of holding it in;
indeed, I cannot.
Jeremiah 20:9 NIV
And remember this dude?? "Then the dragon was enraged at the woman and went off to wage war against the rest of her offspring--those who keep God's commands and hold fast their testimony about Jesus." Revelation 12:17 NIV
I will keep on telling you how much Jesus loves you. I will hold fast to Truth. I have tried to dismantle it, and I only believe more. I cannot keep quiet, and I won't. I not only want to tell you all about him, I want to show you by how I live and love and serve. God is holy, make no mistake. But he is also TRUE love. There is no other substitute, and I just can't hold that in.